Sunday, August 16, 2009


What if someone told you that s/he never ever got naked? AT ALL!!!!! What would your reaction be? I can imagine the awkward silence, the sidelong glance, the subtle but swift shuffle to the side, the questions in your head about that individual's sanity. I can see you thinking, "You mean you never get naked? At all!! What a weirdo. There's something clearly wrong with this picture."

Well folks, I have a cofession to make : that person is me. I don't like to get all. Nakedness is the ultimate form of openness; it is transparency; it is the state of letting it all hang out and well....I can't do that. I'm too much in control to do that. I' too "strong" for that. Who? Me? Vulnerable? Are you kidding me? You must've been smoking some of that good stuff.

Unfortunately, God has been dealing with my lack of nakedness. He has poked me again and again and has even DARED to tear at bits and pieces of my clothing. What the heck is He doing? Why does He want me to stand nude before the world and reveal my flaws and shame? Never that!! Yet, God told me something new today. He asked me what happens when people take a shower with clothes on. Do they really get clean? Are they truly washed and purified? The answer is of course, "No". To take a proper shower, to be made clean, whole and fresh, we must all be naked.

The nakedness I speak of is not physical , it is emotional and spiritual. I have always been the girl with armor on-with the need to look in control, to share only the strengths, to be strong for everybody else. Now, God is leading me to a new place. Scratch's past leading now, He's yanking me. I think He thinks I've taken too long. He wants me to be naked, open and transparent so that He can use me, so that He can heal me,so that He can transform me, so that He can love me, so that I can be truly loved. God is calling me to bare my heart and soul, to share my flaws, fears and weaknesses, to speak of my passions, to unlock myself and throw away the key and I. am. afraid. I have NEVER done this before. What if I'm not accepted? What if I stand naked and I am too much or too little or both? What if I am too passionate? Too "Christian"? Too stubborn? Not edgy enough? Just not woman enough?

As the "What ifs" play this song and dance in my head, I remember that I am fearfully and wonderfully made. I remember that He chose me before I was born. I remember that because He truly SHOWED me a little over 2 years ago, I am enough-nay, I am more than enough. I am perfect just the way I am. And guess what, I am going to try. As I throw my shirt to the wind, unzip my pants and slip them past my feet; as I feel the cold wind reminding me that I stand with no covering, I'll be forced to rely on His words and to learn what He meant when He told me He had set me free. I'll be a much better friend, a much better sister, a much better Christian and a much better girlfriend (because my journey with "him" is what has escalated this whole push any way).

I invite you and you and you, to dare to stand naked with me because vulnerability is truly a gift. I intend to receive it as should you.

John 11:44: "And he that was dead came forth, bound hand and foot with graveclothes: and his face was bound about with a napkin. Jesus saith unto them, Loose him, and let him go."

Saturday, February 7, 2009

I Believe

I believe........

that being a woman is one of the most beautiful and powerful gifts God could have given me. Men don't stand a chance next to us and no man looks as blazing HOTTTT as we women do. Hehe

that a life without purpose and direction is a meaningless, empty and futile life devoid of all sense

that God calls you and I to rise far above and beyond mediocrity; to refuse to do less than our best; to give less than our all

that faith will take you places that wealth, power and connections will only nip at. Believe me when I say that mountains can literally be moved in faith

that people who live their lives without God must be a lot stronger than I am and have some inner strength that I am missing because I cannot do ANYTHING without God. No, I am not more pious than anyone else or more me. I just believe that I must be so weak to need God's strength so much. It is impossible for me to draw breath without Him.

that the day I stop serving God is the day that I die. (Read above.....How can I live without air?)

that being a wife and a mother is the most wonderful, beautiful, fascinating, gorgeously breathtaking thing in the world but also one of the scariest, most daunting tasks ever. I pray constantly that I will never fail at those. Next to my relationship with God, those two positions are second to none.

that human beings can only attempt to recreate the beauty that nature so simply exudes.....every ray of sunlight, splash of the ocean, gust of the wind, flap of wings, ruggedness of mountains, serenity of sunsets, kiss of waves beneath the sea speaks is so complete. Nothing can be added to its beauty and nothing dare be taken from it! In writing this, I just realized the importance in saving our planet. Our defacement of this masterpiece is a daily SIN!

that love is more than the sum of its parts: it is much more than emotion and stronger than devotion. It is words and thoughts and deeds, prayers and desires and needs, burning passion and sacrifice all wrapped up into one

that family is irreplacable......that friendships are magical.....that self-love is foundational and God-love (nay, Jesus-love :)) is the source of it all

that "life and death are in the mouth of man" and I refuse to speak what my eyes see. True sight is found in the eyes of my heart and soul and not in my physical eyes

that the day we stop growing is the day we shrivel up inside. Dear Lord, let me never ever be satisfied (mark my words, I said "satisfied" not "content". There is a world of difference) with the status quo. I want to push harder to love God more passionately, be a better woman, sister, friend, (when that time comes ;)) wife and lover, mother, aunty, cousin; employee, employer, leader, writer, whatever.

that pride is a silent but deadly killer. You let it in and like an enormous gust of wind, it blows everything away.

that the inventors of high heels were inspired by God Himself :)

that my body is a wonderful masterpiece and fashion is the drum to our heart's songs. C'mon women, we know that those clothes, shoes and accessories are our weapons. Use them to your advantage ;)

that beauty flows from the inside out and God truly does not like He didn't make it :)

that life without music is like a snail without a shell: skinny, ugly, veiny and grossly incomplete....this is why I make everyday a musical-belting songs out at every turn and every chance I get

that the end does not justify the means. It is in our means, our journeys, our paths that our stories truly lie.

that our greatest challenges are our biggest teachers and lessons.....that it is our attitudes, perspective and responses to these challenges that our fate (and faith) is sealed

that putting limits on God and boxing Him in is a contradiction in terms. What happened to OMNIpresent, OMNIscient and OMNIpotent? What happened to our understanding of even the concept of "God" as larger than life? Cast those limits off, burn those boxes......I know that's what I'm doing this year. Let's start a revolution :)

that impossible is absolutely NOTHING. I can do allllllll things through Christ who strengthens me

Thursday, January 29, 2009

Rebel with a Cause :)

I've been listening to India.Arie and Chrisette Michele over and over and over and over and........did I say OVER again? LOL!!! I love those women: they are soulful, classy and beautiful. They know who they are and what they want. They are young non-conformists who refuse to live by society's rules (or in their case, by the rules of today's music industry). I love that and I WANT that! I don't want to live my life by society's rules. Now, before you get any ideas I am an extremely law-abiding citizen: no arrests, misdemeanors or run-ins with the police here. Heck, no tickets! Okay, may be that doesn't count. I don't think a lot of pedestrians get tickets out there-but these days, who knows? :)

What I mean when I say that I don't want to live my life by society's rules is that I want to know what I stand for, WHO I stand for, what I believe in and WHY I believe in it. I stand for Jesus Christ-for His Kingdom, His authority, His sovereignty and His LOVE. I believe that He died for you and I, is alive in those who receive Him and continually transforms my life with every encounter I have with Him (that is no exaggeration). I believe that I am loved more than I will ever understand-that the Hands that carry me are invisible yet all-powerful, that every single step is orchestrated by Him, that my present and future are already taken care of. I believe in it because it has been proven in my life time and time again, because the love I know I feel is so overwhelming that no words can ever describe it; because I know that when I lift my voice in song to try to express it (I'll have you know that I act like my life is a musical), a well of love runs so deep within my soul that I know that even those heartfelt notes will be insufficient; because I see miracles happen in my life; because I have absolutely no reason to be where I am today, who I am or be this consistently joyful; because there is no other reason for which li'l sinful, prideful, doubtful (and many other -fuls) "me" should be this blessed to be have relationships with some of the most amazing people in the world.

I don't want to live my life believing what everyone believes, doing what everyone does, wearing what everyone wears. I want to be different-not for the sake of it or because I think I'm all that and a slice of mango-but because I want to live the right way. I am sooooo human sometimes that it annoys me. I can get scared easily, worry about things that have not even happened, refuse a helping hand because I am "Miss Independent", disappoint myself, those I love and God; the list is endless. I want to be different because I want my life to have meaning. I want to have a purpose. I want my life to count for something. I want to leave a legacy. I want to know who I am by knowing who He is so that I can contribute to the world in the only way that I can: in a way that no one else will ever be able to duplicate. See, you and I are originals. I will never be you and you'll never be me. That's what makes us special!!!

In doing these, I want to enjoy my life. I LOVE being a woman and I love the challenges, responsibilities and maaaaaaany perks that womanhood brings. I want to be the best young woman I can possibly be-even if it means going against the grain some days. I sincerely hope that you do, too. So go out there, be as gorgeous as you are, love every inch of you and dare to be different. You are so much more than a sheep without a shepherd.

Mango Kisses,
On Eagles' Wings

P.S. Yes, I admit I LOOOOOOOOOVE mangoes. I think they are one of God's ultimate gifts to humanity. Now, you know what I really want for Valentine's Day :)

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Happy New Year!!!

Hello there!! HAPPY NEW YEARRRRR. I know I am more than a little late-3 weeks late to be precise but better late than never right?? Okay.....I'm sorry. When I started, I promised that I would update this at least 3 days a week and I have not kept my promise to you or to myself. The thought of that has definitely really weighed me down. I sincerely apologize and I will do better.
There is something in the atmosphere this year. I felt it the minute the clock struck midnight on January 1, 2009. I have felt an excitement that I can barely contain. There is a POWERFUL energy in the spiritual atmosphere....I don't know if you feel it but I surely can. It is God's preparation for extraordinary things to come for you and I this year but only if we choose to work with Him. This will not be a year for "wimping" out, cowering or hiding. This is the year that He will yank us out of our comfort zones, throw us into the spotlight and empower us to live our dreams. Brandon Heath sings, "Don't get comfortable. I'm about to move this mountain; then, I'm gonna move you in. Yesterday, this is not yesterday......I am gonna show you what I mean/ I am gonna love like you've never seen/ You are gonna live like you used to dream...." This is the year that those dreams will become reality but WORK we must and TRUST we must and LOVE HIM we must. It will not be a song-and-dance or a piece of cake but believe me it will be the beginning of greater things to come.
This year is pregnant with a purpose for you and I. We have to follow God in ways that we never have before and seek and listen like never before. Let Him fill your dreams, hearts and every crevice of your being.
I know I am trusting Him with my dreams. Will you trust Him with yours?